A few years ago, I was lost with my life. I was confused and lived with no direction and little hope for improvement. Kind of a long story. Dave and I were in the beginnings of our relationship and he bought me a book, The Secret. I read it. Thought about it. Reflected on it. Then things started changing a bit. Then I started going back into a despair mindset. I finally decided that I deserved to be happy and successful. I made that thought as permanent as I could.
The biggest thing I struggle with in my life is my anger. It's pretty intense. It takes a lot for me to control and find peace. I have found that Buddhist mini-meditations have helped the most with this as well as physical training.
Since I have changed this mindset, I have noticed that I cannot stand being around negative people. Sure! I'll vent big time from time to time, but I do my best not to complain all the time. It really gets to me when I'm around people who "whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine." I do my best to ignore it, but it eventually gets under my skin. And people who eternally have something shoved up their bum confuse me. Those people are forever pissed and sour.
Then there are those who linger on things long since passed. I have a couple of friends who hold on to high school friends, stories, etc and never move on. They tell the same stories every time we hang out about the same people. I did not like high school. I did not (and do not) like most of the people I went to high school with. I do not wish to relive any of those moments. I want to live NOW. What matters is now.
I have come to realization that I do not really fit in with most of my family (immediate and extended). There are quite a few long-time friends that I don't really connect with anymore. I want to surround myself with people who live in the present, are intelligent, observant, tolerant, and positive.
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